The other day (after reading that one of the new mom’s blogs I read is pregnant with her second … wow!) I was thinking back to when Alex first came home.  I was thinking, if we had a second, would I be more relaxed about everything, would those first few months be easier (probably NOT with a little kid running around)… and then I realized – I don’t even remember those first couple of months.  I remember a few things here and there, but specifically I can’t recall how/where Alex slept her first month (even days) home from the hospital!

I know I held her a few times and slept, but did we do that every night?  We had the pac n play set up but that didn’t work out for her, but did we use it a few nights to try it out?  Eventually she ended up in the bouncy chair – but was that right away?  I feel like at first she was too small for that.

I don’t feel like a bad mom for forgetting this stuff – heck it’s the hormones or whatever, but I do feel like if/when we have a second baby – I wont’ even have that pre-knowledge of having done this once before to fall back on.  That’s just crazy.

Okay I went back to my blog (April 2012) to figure out how we survived and holy crap – that was rough!  She slept in the cradle/bassinet at the end of our bed for the first couple of weeks (which usually meant she slept in my arms in bed after she wouldn’t sleep in the cradle and I was desperate).  I know we had pee incidents (peed out the side of her diaper) a few times in the middle of the night, and we struggled with swaddling because she hated having her hands confined (and then legs if i swaddled with arms out).  I do remember that we had major issues getting her to sleep on her back, side sleeping was the only way to go in the beginning… until we figured out the chair…

By the end of april we started using the vibrating chair and all of a sudden she actually slept!  (That’s means more than 2 hours at a time).  Oh sweet relief that was.

So now i know when we decide to have a second kid, I can just re-read my blog and decide if i’m really ready or not – haha :)

Someone came home with her first ponytail yesterday from daycare – it was a surprise but adorable. She was totally hamming it up when she saw the camera (phone) come out too :)